weekend update

Ok- so I know it's thursday and I am just now puting up stuff from this past weekend. I didn't get the pics I was hoping for-- K was a sad baby all weekend and E was determined that since she was cold at the beach she needed to wear the hood on her hoodie!!! :) Here are some shots.

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These are completely unedited-- I hope to do some work in photoshop tonight. I have been completely unmotivated to do much-- I just want a job-- and keep looking and looking and nothing-- I didn't get any at OU - not even an interview-- which is soooooo frustrating to me- they were basic jobs--GRRR-- I am just so bummed. I spend 5 hours today driving around applying for jobs, looking for jobs, etc. I know God will do something-- I am just not patient enough. I was reminded how much I love Jeremy Camp the other day (thanks Nic- they are on thier way). And this song struck me...

Lay down my Pride
Every single word I say
You know it before I speak
You know every thought the deepest part of me
You draw me closer than I see
Your presence is every thing I need to be the child that you've created me to be
I'm ready now to see it your way

I lay down my pride
My desires my demise
I'm ready now to see it your way
I'm done I'm through ignoring you
Now it's true
I'm kneeling at the cross of your grace
Lay down my pride

I was faced with passing time but I knew the choice was mine
To finally come to you and give you all control
I've wandered miles to find my way and then you revealed this simple faith
I know that you can see the secrets of my soul

The cross
The blood you shed for me
Your back was ripped and bruised so I can know your love
I kneel I bow to you my King

I lay down my pride
My desires my demise
I'm ready now to see it your way
I'm done I'm through ignoring you
Now it's true
I'm kneeling at the cross of your grace
Lay down my pride

I don't think of myself as a prideful person but I am learning that there are many times when I think I know what's best-- and I have to instead accept God's plan (which in this case is different than mine). I know that's the best thing-- but it's the unknown that gets me all the time.

Prayin for my pride to vanish and to have faith like a child.
Ck