Just be!

Sorry I haven't posted since my interview. I have been busy- just being! I think I grew up thinking that it wasn't ok to just be-- you had to be doing something, going somewhere, but it was lazy to just be. I don't know that I was "taught" this as much as I just picked it up. This has fed into my whole sense of go go go. And led me to the point I am now of high stress, getting sick and my body shutting down. So in this new phase of life I am learning to BE. I have to remind myself it's not lazy- it's healthy.

I have been reading this book "Ultrametabolism"-- well I have been reading it for a long time now... but I am getting to the relevent stuff. It's about me. It's about how my body got to be in the shut down over run state it is. So I am learning how to fix it. I've successfully gotten rid of the infection I had- but now I have to be healthy. That includes just being! I think it helps me to know that me relaxing is for a purpose (see it's all ingrained in me that it all has to be for a reason).

Anyway. I'm learning lots. I have some new vitamins to add to my daily routine... but it will prevent me from getting sicker again and well it will help me not only not get sick-- but to actually get healthy. I have to do this! I will do this! I can do this! I want to do this! (let's just hope that want to do this lasts more than an hour!)

So here's to knowledge. Here's to health. Here's to life. Here's to Just being.

Oh- and the interview went ok. I find out this week if I go back for an on campus interview the first week of October. Keep prayin!

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