I really am trying

I'm so frustrated. Tired of people inplying that I am not trying to find a job. GRRR... I just spent 6 hours online looking for jobs- I applied for a TON of them and have several more I have to call about tomorrow. 1 hour looking through the paper (sometimes I find that easier). I have that interview on Thursday. I don't know what the hell else I am supposed to do. I am not sitting on my ass waiting for something to land in my lap.

After I find out on Thursday what I get with that I will be dropping my body by Meijer cause they are hiring 3rd shift. And well hell if I get sick again-- oh well-- We have to pay the bills!

(Do you sense frustration!!!!!!!?????)
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I am tired of not knowing what's next. Waiting day in and day out to see what new things I can apply for.... and wait for. And damn it I am not sitting here just warming the couch!

On a encouraging note I am officially booked to shoot a wedding on March 24th!! :) I am doing their engagment pics on Saturday (the 18th). I am supper pumped about the photography end of life-- just wish I was going to have more time to do it! I will get there eventually. And I keep telling myself-- in 4.5 years when mail is addressed to Dr & Mrs Kennedy--- life will be better... well at least we will be able to pay the bills cause we WON'T be living in a big house just cause we can! We just won't!

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