some pics & a day
Here are some pics that I referenced yesterday. They are from my last 2 photo shoots. I love the one of the hands.... I think it's priceless. The other one, I just love the red/orange behind them.
On another note -- my day was good. I have been having some realizations about life lately since I have been happy and able to reflect in a "right" mind.
I have been sorting out truths about who I am and what I have believed about myself for the past few years and what I am being reminded of now about the real me. I told Ryan this weekend... "I really am a good person". The crazy thing is it has probably been 5+ years since I have believed that. There have been times here or there that I had confidence, maybe when I started a job, or changed life situations... but it was short lived. This job I entered much the opposite. I felt defeated, and like I didn't really have much to offer--(a belief built after being reminded of otherwise on a frequent basis in the past few years).
In the past year or two, I have talked myself into "being happy" in order to remind myself of the many blessings in life-- but right now I can just generally say I am happy-- a happy I haven't felt in years. I can't explain it-- I just have a peace from God and I would do anything to keep it forever!!! I was reminded that this newly re-discovered happiness was evident to others today when someone called me "smiley". People used to refer to me as "smiley" all the time.... but I haven't heard that for a long time. The comment itself made me smile. :)
I hope you are having a happy day. Smile today--- even if it's forced--- the real thing will come.
On another note -- my day was good. I have been having some realizations about life lately since I have been happy and able to reflect in a "right" mind.
I have been sorting out truths about who I am and what I have believed about myself for the past few years and what I am being reminded of now about the real me. I told Ryan this weekend... "I really am a good person". The crazy thing is it has probably been 5+ years since I have believed that. There have been times here or there that I had confidence, maybe when I started a job, or changed life situations... but it was short lived. This job I entered much the opposite. I felt defeated, and like I didn't really have much to offer--(a belief built after being reminded of otherwise on a frequent basis in the past few years).
In the past year or two, I have talked myself into "being happy" in order to remind myself of the many blessings in life-- but right now I can just generally say I am happy-- a happy I haven't felt in years. I can't explain it-- I just have a peace from God and I would do anything to keep it forever!!! I was reminded that this newly re-discovered happiness was evident to others today when someone called me "smiley". People used to refer to me as "smiley" all the time.... but I haven't heard that for a long time. The comment itself made me smile. :)
I hope you are having a happy day. Smile today--- even if it's forced--- the real thing will come.
posted by Christy at 8:54 PM
4 Comments:
I glad that your happy and things are going well. The pictures are great!!!
Love,
Mom
you ARE a great person and i would like to personally kick the ass of all the people who made that impossible for you to believe. go get em!
and for the record - one of my favorite pictures of you and I is in front of that calder...probably in about that same place. ahhh - memories.
Congrats cuz! It's about time luck turned your way, and you deserve all the happiness in your life right now. It looks like your photography business is getting ready to soar. You have always had a great talent in the arts so I'm not surprised. Good luck with everything!
Christy-
I am so happy that you're so happy. I have noticed your newly found happiness since you've moved to GR and started this new journey. You are a different person and I praise God with you that you're feeling this way for real and not just pretending. Thanks for walking through life with me and for being honest.
hugs,
erin
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