Dr. Pam you rocked my world....and my life boat
WARNING: This will be a long post.
So I had a Dr. apt today and this new Dr. rocks... in both senses of the word. Let me explain. I made an apt to see her a couple weeks ago cause I was having a lot of pain. So I go in early today and fill out paperwork. I get called back there almost immediately... nice nurse. Dr. Pam cames in after just a few minutes. She talked / listened to me for 40 MINUTES!!! That is unheard of now days. I could see if she was running lots of tests or what not, but no, she was just listening to me. She looked over some tests that I had run a couple weeks ago and talked to me about further investigation.
It rocked that she was willing to listen, refer, and give insight.
Her insight rocked my world in a different way. In a bad way. When I was in pain a couple weeks ago I went to ER to have them investigate the possibility of a large ovarian cyst. Many of you know that about a year and 1/2 ago I was diagnosed with PCOS (poly-cystic ovarian syndrome). This put a slight damper on the possibility of me having children. The possibility was much slimmer and much more difficult. When we found out about all my allergies we thought that maybe the PCOS wouldn't be as big of a deal once I got the allergies worked out- maybe my hormones would work themselves out as well. That was my hope & prayer. I have and always will want children of my own.
However, when I had these tests run the told me I don't have ANY cysts. I asked for clarification.... none at all? Nope. SOOOOO, WHAT IN THE WORLD IS MY DEAL!!?? Only to find out today that I likely have endometriosis. I have to follow up with another Dr. and have a Laparoscopy.
Right now my heart is heavy. My eyes are filled with tears and I worry about not being able to bring a beautiful baby into the world. Ryan is super supportive, and hopeful. He admits that he doesn't understand the degree of disappointment I am feeling right now. While he wants kids-- it isn't his end all be all... and it has been one of the top things I want in life!
So your prayers are appreciated. Your story (if you have this and have kids) is appreciated. And if you have read this far--- THANKS!
So I had a Dr. apt today and this new Dr. rocks... in both senses of the word. Let me explain. I made an apt to see her a couple weeks ago cause I was having a lot of pain. So I go in early today and fill out paperwork. I get called back there almost immediately... nice nurse. Dr. Pam cames in after just a few minutes. She talked / listened to me for 40 MINUTES!!! That is unheard of now days. I could see if she was running lots of tests or what not, but no, she was just listening to me. She looked over some tests that I had run a couple weeks ago and talked to me about further investigation.
It rocked that she was willing to listen, refer, and give insight.
Her insight rocked my world in a different way. In a bad way. When I was in pain a couple weeks ago I went to ER to have them investigate the possibility of a large ovarian cyst. Many of you know that about a year and 1/2 ago I was diagnosed with PCOS (poly-cystic ovarian syndrome). This put a slight damper on the possibility of me having children. The possibility was much slimmer and much more difficult. When we found out about all my allergies we thought that maybe the PCOS wouldn't be as big of a deal once I got the allergies worked out- maybe my hormones would work themselves out as well. That was my hope & prayer. I have and always will want children of my own.
However, when I had these tests run the told me I don't have ANY cysts. I asked for clarification.... none at all? Nope. SOOOOO, WHAT IN THE WORLD IS MY DEAL!!?? Only to find out today that I likely have endometriosis. I have to follow up with another Dr. and have a Laparoscopy.
Right now my heart is heavy. My eyes are filled with tears and I worry about not being able to bring a beautiful baby into the world. Ryan is super supportive, and hopeful. He admits that he doesn't understand the degree of disappointment I am feeling right now. While he wants kids-- it isn't his end all be all... and it has been one of the top things I want in life!
So your prayers are appreciated. Your story (if you have this and have kids) is appreciated. And if you have read this far--- THANKS!
7 Comments:
Oh Christy, you will be in my thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine the confusion, frustration and sadness that you must be feeling. I know that it IS possible to get pregnant after endo, and I believe iVillage.com has message boards about this... you should check it out. I also believe one of my friends had that "L" word done last year b/c she had endo. She has a 5 year old daughter, and will be trying for #2 this fall/winter (after our mutual friends wedding...LOL... gotta fit in those bridesmaids dresses... GAH!).
Anyhow... sorry to get off topic. I just wanted to let you know you will be in my thoughts. I hope and pray someday you will be able to hold your own little miracle!
oh girl ((((((Hugs)))))) I'm so sorry.
Oh honey - I love you so much and I know that having children of your own is so important to you. My hope is that the doctors will be able to help and that you will find some level of comfort in your pain and sadness.
I'm still not working - only a phone call away :)
Very sorry to hear that :(
Christy, I had a patient with two of her very own, perfectly healthy children. she underwent a cleaning out procedure prior to conceiving both times and she had told me if they wanted more children she would have to have the procedure again...her husband used this as birth control :) anyway she made it sound very doable ad was not difficult to have them...full term. hope this helps, we want cousins too :)
Christy...
I have a few friends who have had endo. and they were able to get "cleaned out" fairly easily and went on to have healthy happy pregnancies with no problem.
I hope all goes well for you too, and most importantly that you are granted the peace and wisdom in God's plan for you.
I know I'm a little late in commenting over here... I've been so super busy with our "vacation", but I did want you to know I've been hopping over here when I can to keep up on your thoughts and feelings and any developments in all of this. I've been praying for you.
Hi Christy,
I too have endometriosis and had laproscopic about 2 months ago. I had a hysterogram and a D&C. I am still trying to figure out what's wrong and why 2 months later we still aren't pregnant. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and if you ever want to chat, please let me know!
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