why can't life be easy.... or at least moderate??
I feel like over the past few years (say 5-6) my life is either one big up or one big down. No, steady going along as normal. Mind you I don't know what "normal" is. I don't know that our culture knows what "normal" is- well, at least I don't want to accept what "normal" might include.
I have been thinking and praying a lot about life-- what I like, don't like, need to change, want to change, what I can do better, etc. Ya know, it's that time of year- New Years resolutions.
So stay tuned. I might have unrealistic expectations- but it's time my life get put together and not be so "on the brink of who knows what" every other second.
This isn't the person/ life I thought I would be/ have when I grew up. Maybe this year I can start the curve toward a better me and a better life, faith, marriage, friendships, bank account and so much more. I am a control freak-- I want things to go the way I think they should in my head-- when they don't I feel like a failure. I need to work on that!
Stay tuned for a prescription for the new me! If it doesn't happen now-- my life will change completely in some very bad ways.
I have been thinking and praying a lot about life-- what I like, don't like, need to change, want to change, what I can do better, etc. Ya know, it's that time of year- New Years resolutions.
So stay tuned. I might have unrealistic expectations- but it's time my life get put together and not be so "on the brink of who knows what" every other second.
This isn't the person/ life I thought I would be/ have when I grew up. Maybe this year I can start the curve toward a better me and a better life, faith, marriage, friendships, bank account and so much more. I am a control freak-- I want things to go the way I think they should in my head-- when they don't I feel like a failure. I need to work on that!
Stay tuned for a prescription for the new me! If it doesn't happen now-- my life will change completely in some very bad ways.
3 Comments:
wow - my resolution to meet more straight men seems pretty lame now. i wish you the absolute best in your resolutions.
we learned a lot yesterday about resolutions, goals and what the scripture says about it. I am a huge list/goal maker and am working extra hard to follow mine this year... We can't always change the circumstances of our days, but we can change how we perceive/embrace them...
Christy, don't be so hard on yourself. I don't think "normal" even exists. We can always say I'm an awful mom, wife, friend, etc. but it is important to look at the positive things you've accomplished and have done too. From what I see (I realize I don't see you very often, but..), you are a dedicated worker, thoughtful spouse, and extremely creative. I wish you the best in your New Year's resolutions, but hope you don't overwhelm yourself in trying to be this perfect person (cause it ain't ever gonna happen). Good luck, and I'd love to see you again too. We should try to get together on a more regular basis (I would like that anyway).
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