Not many words right now...

I don't have many words right now..... I am just kind of hangin in there with life. This week is crazy busy and tomorrow I will either write with joy or ranting anger. Still frustrated with work and lookin for direction. I just feel so blessed to have a wonderful husband and friends who are supportive & encouraging.

Tell you all more later. NIGHT- I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted! :)

The challenge continues

I have had a horrible day.... don't really want to talk about it-- but I just read this in someone elses blog and wanted to put it in mine. It's a quote- from a quotable card--

Peace.
it does not mean to be in a place
where there is no noise, trouble
or hard work. it means to be in
the midst of those things and still
be calm in your heart.

Think about that tonight... what a great challenge.

I'm out to think. Love you all!

Another day in the life....

Today--- well it was just a day. Nothing too extrodinary that I did. But tonight I got to hang out with my husband since I didn't have Bible Study with the girls. It's nice having a week like normal people when you don't work all day have 2 hours off and go back at night. I never realized how much energy it takes up. Sooooo- I'm looking.... exploring options. Anyone have any ideas for me.

I was really encouraged today at work I took, what I have done so far in our wedding album, and Donna was like I don't want to detour you from your "real job" but you should totally do this professionally. THAT made me SMILE soooo big!! Especially since I have been so passionate about it and feel like I am making better pages than ever.

Anyway-- I'm still exploring what life has to offer me. What God wants to do with me. What will help me to celebrate my life the most!

Here is to seeing what tomorrow brings!

Well- It's been a long day-- But a good one. Mom just called- she is in St. Louis with Mimi & Gramps. Gramps is having surgery tomorrow on his gallbladder. We are pulling for you gramps.... I know the pain! UGH.

Here are a few more pics for you to enjoy. Love you all. Prayin for Gramps. Please keep us posted.

oppps---

Well I guess my brain was malfunctioning and not the blog. :) Sorry for the multiple posts. :)
I will get better than this.

this is a test!

Ok - This is just a test-- I posted a reallllly long one with pics and everything earlier and it says I posted it- but it doesn't show up when i look at my blog. GRR- let's see if I can get this to work?!

Blessed

Soooo- I haven't posted over the past few days. Cause- well, I have been preoccupied. As most of you know I have been struggling with pretty serious depression.... and well this weekend was a complete joy! I know Ryan was wondering where in the world all the sudden joy came from, but it was wonderful!

I wasn't workin as much this weekend and so I got to scrapbook!! WOO WHOO. I realized that it's such a joy for me to do! I not only love the photography end of it but also the creative outlet. I feel so blessed to be creative. I attached some of my work.

I just feel so blessed. to have a great family, a wonderful husband, and to be able to use my gifts.

Today I am back at work... not very excited about that. God has made it pretty clear that I have passions in other things and that work is contributing to my depression. As I talked to Maria about -- I was praying for something clear to come-- and well now I feel it has and I have a responsibility to do something about it. Pray that I follow God's lead- as he walks with me in my rediscovering a passion for life.

Exciting and scary at the same time!

This is a pic from outside our cabin this weekend on our retreat with the High school kids. It was so great to get away and it was a chance to just be. This pic reminded me to make sure you see a path-- but you don't have to necessarily be able to see around the next bend to get started.

So here I am- being intreged by the wonder of life. What's coming next? How can I be the best that God created me to be? Well I guess the whole thought behind this blog is the fact that I seem to be rushing through life-- almost as though I don't even have time to breath. I wanna make sure I stop.... think.... praise.... wonder.... LIVE.

I have so many things I am into-- photography, family, my wonderful husband Ryan, friends, scrapbooking, faith, mentoring--- and yet the reason why I am here- the reason why I am doing any of it it simply to Glorify God. I hope this blog will be an honor- a tribute to the gift of life I have been given.-- Cause "the wonder of it all, is that I'm livin just to fall more in love with YOU!"

Here's to a great life!