A sadly not so unique situation
Someone commented on her post and posted a link to this web site
http://www.dearchurch.com/
Let me tell you- this girl is honest and what makes me sad is that I can so relate. What makes me even more sad is that it's not uncommon that people feel this way about the church. I was just saying to friend if it weren't for my deep faith and previous ah ha's about how God can work through random situations... I would not be a Christian after my last job. Yep, I know that sounds harsh, but it's true. Yea, my parents tell me that people ask about me. But once I stopped working there no co workers contacted me, yes they heard about me through others, but when you kick someone who is sick and hurting to the curb-- you DON'T leave them to flounder. So I walk away thinking that pretty much I was just a staff member, not a friend, not even a congregation member... But a body... That's it. Yes, I still hold bitterness. Yes, I would NEVER EVER recommend someone go there. Yes, I will still share my faith. I will still live for Christ. I will still pray for the kids I worked with and those I wasn't able to reach. Cause that's what God has put on my heart. Do I know that God wants me to forgive the leaders of the church I come from-- certainly. But right now I can't. Right now it's still to fresh.
It was a growing experience. Yes, I think my life would be different in good ways and bad if I hadn't been there. . . And I know that one day I will forgive them. But right now I ache for that place. I ache for the lack of care. The hypocrisy. The apathy. I ache that those who walk through those doors to meet Christ for the first time will be disillusioned as to what He's all about.
It's about a lifestyle. It's about a beleive that doesn't disapear when times get tough. It's about a faith that holds to hope in a dark world. I didn't intend for this email to be a rant-- but apparently that's on my heart. Check out the website. I find it interesting and insightful.
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