Foul Mood

Yep- that's me in a foul mood! I have put off posting on here all day cause well I was holding out hope that I would hear something from Calvin. But no. It's now 3:30 on Friday and nothing! She said either Friday or by Friday and well... I was holding out hope for today. I have made sure my phone is on and working. I have made sure my email works. Nothing!

I didn't want to post how anxious and worried I am and then find out I got a second interview and have it be a virtual mood swing. Why does my mood for the day hinge on this!? GRR!

Nothing- At least tell me I didn't get it! UGH! Anyway- I have been higher in spirits lately cause I was hopeful about this. And while my mom reminded me last night if I don't get it it's for a reason. That doesn't pay the bills, that doesn't answer my "what next?". UGH! Ryan's car broke yesterday. Nothing major-- well it could have been if we fixed it right... but we couldn't afford to so we just had them fix it. His window just got stuck down. Oh yea the motor is broken and all the parts are rusted out so we have to replace everything- says the dealer! CRAP HOLE! Ryan told them (since it's been raining here for days and was pouring when he discovered this wonderful joyous situation) just put it back up. So now Ryan has a window that doesn't move. No biggy but it still cost us $100. Have I mentioned before that I HATE money!

Anyway- here's to my crappy day! Here's to not knowing what's next when I thought I did. Here's to being crushed that I didn't get one more thing that I thought God had planned! Can you just fill me in God? What's next!? Or maybe I would rather not know at this rate!

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