life

I still kind of feel like life is passing me by. Here is the best and worst of the last week. Sorry I am not updating more frequently-- I will be hopefully when I get my groove back.

Ryan and I are looking forward to a weekend of no plans- finally! We are both running ragged still after the holidays and haveing trouble getting in the swing of things.

A few things I have discovered I dont' like.
- incomplete paychecks- yes I know I didn't work over the holiday, but I don't like the results in my check!

- Vacation-- not that I don't like vacation- and this is by far the best. Far less pre-vacation stress than I have had in several years (mostly cause my job isn't insain and I haven't taken vacation in a long time). But it wasn't stressfull leading up to it, but coming back is proving to be a challenge. I am struggling to sleep at night and stuggling even harder to get out of bed at 6:30am. I am just reminded over and over again that I am a routine person and if it changes I ALWAYS have a difficult time getting back in the swing of things.

- The fact that Ryan and my schedule's are so different. I know it's good training for the next four years and unlike some family members (as we learned over Christmas) we love spending time together. I hate that he doesn't get home til 9pm then I want to go to bed around 10 cause we are trying to get up early and workout. He will eventually work his system to this process, and with school starting again for him on Monday it will be a challenge for him to get his homework done and get to bed at a decent hour.

How did we do it when we were in College? I worked 30 hours a week (which Ryan works 32) & took 18 credit hours my senior year. I am a person who HAS TO study--- LOTS!! But somehow being married makes it different. 1) we aren't doing the same thing (like all my roomies in college were going to school too) 2) There are different "stereo types" about what college students should have, pay for-- and somehow when you are 30 and married you should have somehow "arrived" and be able to pay for everything. SOOOO NOT TRUE!

- Last and the biggest pain of all-- the fact that I have been getting headaches everyday. Between 2 and 4 is when they start. It had been so long since I had a migrane and well I was enjoying forgetting what they were like. I think we figured it out though-- Ryan suggested I eat more protein at lunch. I have NEVER been a big protein fan--- cheese maybe, but I just can't eat a lot of meat. And with my allergies I am limited as to how I have have that meat-- as in I used to be able to put a ton of lunch meat on a sandwich- but when I eat it by itself it makes me gag to eat very much. So the challenge once agian is finding ballance.

Anyway, to give equal treatment-
Some things I am loving lately:
- That Ryan made me dinner last night on his day off :)
- That we are able to spend time together while he is on brake and life is a little slower - even though he's working more.
- That we are back at church for the second sunday in a row--- man we love that place!
- That we have nothing to do this weekend!! :) Ok, well nothing besides clean and get orginized and actually start to think about some goals for the year.
- That I am lucky enough to have a job, one that's not stressful (besides not knowing when it will end) and one that I am still enjoying.
- That I am blessed and everyday I am challenging myself to think about what I did yesterday, what can I do today, and what will I do tomorrow to make this year the best, God glorifying year of my life!!
- The fact that I am on day 3 without an afternoon headache!
- The fact that I have committed to doing a race in September. Race for the cure. I am pretty excited and I am looking forward to having that deadline push me to get in shape.

What about you? What are your resolutions? Do you do that? Do you have anti-resolutions?

oh, and here is Ryan's new (well not so new anymore) hair - This is "his" dog Casey on Christmas eve.



Have a great day!
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