just plain crappy
Well-- It's come to the breaking point. I hate it! I hate that I don't have a job. I hate that I am not doing anything with my life & don't know the direction I am going. I hate that I feel like I have no purpose. I hate that I don't feel like I am contributing in a way that's helping pay the bills. I hate that I don't have patience for what God wants. I am sooo frustrated with this job thing. I am tired of waiting. I am tired of wanting to do something I love, but worrying that it's going to make me sick again or not pay the bills. I'm tired of restless nights. I'm tired of wondering, not trusting. Tired of asking "what's next?" Tired of the jobs I am qualified for being ones that will lead me to a lifestyle that my health/body can't handle. Tired that the jobs I am passionate about won't pay the bills.
Praying to get some answers & my day gets better.
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Praying to get some answers & my day gets better.
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posted by Christy at 8:20 AM
2 Comments:
I'll be praying for you, girl. I understand exactly how you're feeling. I've been in that place of uncertainty many times. Just trust and try to let go. That's something I struggle with a lot but I trust and know from experience that God takes care of His own. :) Big hugs!
Kris
Christy, I'm so sorry you're going through this. I 100% know how you feel. I felt this same way all summer, and I still feel this way a tad bit when people congratulate me on my new job... I can't help but add in there "Yeah, well its JUST a part time specialist position... I'm not doing what I WANT to be doing".
I promise it will all work out. I know I got my job for a reason, and I'm accepting that this year I'll work part time and spend the rest of the time with my little guy. The job you are supposed to have will come to you, God will provide, and it will work out. Keep your faith. You'll look back on this time and think "Oh yeah I see why I had to go through that". I promise.
Also, I'm not sure what you're qualified to do, I can't remember where you're trying to get a job, but have you thought about subbing? I'm not sure how much subs pay over there, but its pretty much a guaranteed 5 days a week job, and you can turn down whatever days you want. You just need 90 college credits, in any field (it doesn't have to be teaching). It would be something to look into just to get you by until something good comes along!
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